Save Face

Finally back to working again. This is from a sketchbook I worked in while my Mother was ill. I chose to keep it a positive message type of journal, instead of one with all the true feelings that were going on inside of me. She loved to see what I had done. I did not get too many finished....too busy with her and trying to spend as much awake time with her.

This piece is composed of pencil, soft pastel, old make-up....yep! old make-up, and some ink.

Who Am I...

My Mother passed on June 3rd...peacefully at home. Hospice...was there to take care of hugging me and helping get Mom ready to be taken to the funeral home. It was tough the last 2 months when we finally got hospice, because we had no critical care nurses to relieve me and I was on 24/7. I just tried to keep her happy and comfortable. We said everything we needed to say to each other...a lot of love there, I am so grateful for that opportunity...I did not have that with my Dad, who passed unepectedly. This has been the most painful, yet insightful, journey in my life. I would do it all over again...even though it took it's toll on me physically and mentally. I will never be the same Suzi...hopefully a better Suzi...one who doesn't have the time or energy to waste on toxic people. I am ridding those from my life and now I need to look deeply into my soul and find me again. This recovery period will be a difficult one since Mom and I were like 2 peas in a pod...I keep finding that I want to call her or just see her there and tell her things...then I remember she isn't physically there. I miss her so much...and I stayed in her bed with her until they came to take her to the funeral home. I wanted to apply her make-up. It was so peaceful and helped me...like a final gift I could give her.

David Bowie - Heroes (live)

For my Mother...you are my Hero.

My Mother is doing worse

Was hoping to do some art in my journal....doing a lot of drawing, but not much time for all the rest of it. My Mom took a turn for the worst and was in the hospital....she has prepared me for when she passes...I know everything I need to take care of. Living with her and being her caregiver is very difficult and demanding, but I would never think of not doing it. Sometimes I feel so alone, but I look at her and how she is suffering and trying to stay alive and she is such an inspiration to me! My life is going through all sorts of changes...and I will be much better for them.

The Start Up

Here are a few pages I am working on...just in pencil...and then on with the color!

I am experimenting with old make-up to use like oil pastels and soft pastels....I hate throwing it out, so I will recycle it and see what happens...who knows!

The top book is my new journal...it has natural paper with a nice look and feel to it. The middle book is a journal where I write inspirational quotes and ideas. And of course...last evening I got my new issue of Somerset Studio...which is total inspiration and like an art class with every issue. My true vice.

I'm Back!!!

After taking months off from my blog and art to be caregiver for my Mom...I have decided I needed to do my art for my own sanity! I am starting small with art journals...hopefully I can use them to vent, hope, pray and possibly some of the works will become a painting one day...I am so full of ideas and just do not have the time to do much for myself. But...I am where I should be...making my Mom as happy and comfortable for as long as the Spirits let her stay. I will only be able to post art once a week...but my observances and musings may still appear in between. It's great to be back...I sure missed my blogging community and the kindred spirits I have met on this blogland journey.

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New Self-Portrait

Me...playing around with my camera and photoshop again!

Happy Valentine's Day!

This is an oil painting study from an old Master's painting. It is appropriately titled "The Kiss."

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