Honored at School Banquet

I am still stunned! Last Friday evening, I was invited to attend the West Virginia University at Parkersburg Student Award Banquet because I was an honoree!!! Well, I saved that letter! And went to the banquet not knowing what I did to get an award. The awards were presented to students for the academic year for their achievements and help in the community.
My Graphic Design instructor presented me with the Journalism Eye for Design Award! She also stated to the room full of people and honorees that I had not been in school for 30 years and let go from my sculpting job due to foreign importing and that I caught on and was so deserving of this award! Bless you, Tori!
Gosh! I needed that. Sometimes I wonder if I am being selfish returning to school. I am turning 50 on Memorial Day, and want to continue to get my Bachelor's and maybe even a Master's Degree in fine art. I know what I want to be when I grow up, it took 50 years to find this mystery out, I want to be an artist and teach art! (Of course the artist gig was always there!) I want to see students grow and develop their skills and move them to be creative souls that nurture each other and give the world beauty. It will probably take 2 years to get the Bachelor's Degree, I already have my Associates. I am having too much fun with school and it makes me feel guilty....Maybe losing my job was a blessing, but paying the bills is pure hell at this point. I feel like the juggler at a carnival...what can I pay this week! I have no other skills than art, I was fortunate to always work in my field. I feel very scared and also ready for the journey into the unknown!!! Ugh! If I think about it too long, I get sick in my stomach...