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Monday, May 4, 2009

May Flowers

I was inspired by the arrival of May. It is not only when things start to bloom, but the month of my birthday. And this year is special...the big 50! This painting could be of me in that field, contemplating my past and thinking, even dreaming, of the future. I do have regrets, I wish I had created more personal art. I always worked in the art field, but for a company of one sort or another. Everything had limitations and was creatively challenging. But losing my last gig was a blow, financially, and at a rough period in my life. I have been stumbling along since... back in school and trying to start up my art business. I have tried selling at a local shop, but not with much success. So, now I will try Etsy and maybe some other things. I am scared, but I have to try.
I have decided to clear out my stuff, including what is in my head, and try to focus and do what I want and need to do. I could never have children and sometimes, if I let myself go there, I can become quite sad. But God must have had other ideas for me, I just wish he'd give me a hint!
This is an acrylic with some paper flowers. The sides are painted all around with the scene. She is gathering a lovely bouquet to set her table for one with her finest china! Maybe she stopped to listen to the lovely bird melodies!


  1. What a beautiful painting. When I looked at her, I sensed a little sadness about her. She looks contemplative, but also a little disappointed. But then she is standing in a field of flowers, gathering a bunch of them and that's where the hope seems to come in and the movement forward! Happy birth month!! I can feel that there are many wonderful things still ahead of you! :) Silke

  2. Wow! I would have never guess you would be turning 50. You look great!

    Lovely painting. It has great perspective. THe woman looks sad though...

  3. I feel so bad for you for that you could never have your own children! I hope you have had a special niece or nephew to love. You know fifty isn't so old that you couldn't foster a child. I know a woman in my town that is about your age that does six of them and she is just the loveliest.

  4. Thank you all for the lovely comments. Yes, she does have a sad look, but she is me! And I am looking back on what I missed out on in my life...but realize I hold the future in my hands (hence, the fresh flowers). My Mom always said I could adopt, but it is expensive and could never do it financially. So, I adopt animals, I am a Mommie to several kitties and dogs that needed me, and I desperately needed them!
    50 will be fabulous!!!! This art community has welcomed me so warmly! Love you all!

  5. I think you found the fountain of youth! I wanna know your secrets :) It is a bit of a struggle right now selling anything I think because the economy is so wishy washy. Hopefully that will improve soon. Love your painting and what it represents....hope and blessings!

  6. This one is sweet as can be! I'm your age & after 25 yrs of being the decision maker on home loans I found myself unemployed. I have always painted but just for myself, friends & family. I was terrified at first. It is scary to put yourself out there but believe me it has been a true blessing. God does work in mysterious ways. Jump in with both feet!
    Peace & Love

  7. Suzi, this painting is wonderful. Happy Birthday. All the best with your Esty shop, I've just opened mine as well, which was a big leap for me.

    Hang in there, things somewhow find a way of working themselves out!

  8. You are all such lovely souls! Thank you for all the support and kind comments!
    XoXo, SuZi

  9. Wow, we both have May birthdays, but I turned 50 LAST year. I must say, you are a very youthful 50~

    I love the painting with the girl in the flowers. I can really relate to it. Sometimes you just have to remind yourself to focus on the positive. 25 years ago I was told by a specialist that I could never have children. I was in the process of adopting when to my utter surprise I became pregnant, then promptly had 3 in a row. I am sure that you have heard these "miracle" stories before, but my point is that I can relate to what you have felt over the years. My kids are older now and I think that is why I enjoy my job working with special needs preschooler so much. I miss that age. I could totally be the type to have a zillion cats if I didn't have children! Yes, they do need you very much! Just remember that you don't have to have children to make a difference in this world! There are so many ways that I am sure you contribute.

    Anyway, I hope you have something special planned for your 50th! Remember that 50 is the new 30! I think you have proved that!
    Hugs, Cris

  10. Thanks Cris, I needed that!
    Xo, SuZi